MERRY CHRISTMAS 2018

Merry Christmas 2018, Guys!!!

I hope all of you are spending amazing Christmas, whenever you are :)

I was very lazy today, but still managed to do some exercises <3

We have to keep fit, even though it's holiday, isn't it?

This will be a very short post :)

But,

Let me give you my favorite Christmas song :)

Boney M - Mary's Boy Child

Do You Want Your Ex Back...?

I could not update for almost a week because I went with my friend.

My friend and I had not meet for 6 months?

So we had fun for 3 days.

Karaoke, watching movie, lunch and dinner, talking until 1 am and I sent him to train station.

There was a good topic between us.

So, his friend broken up with her boyfriend. They were dating for 3 years?

The girl was the one who decided to broken up.

And now she wanted him back, because she didn't want to start from beginning with another man..

So,

My friend asked my opinion.

I was gladly and immediately answered (of course I also think about it),

'If you decided to break things off in a relationship,

Never wanted it back.

It's better to start from beginning with other man,

than continue with a wrong man'

My ex-boyfriend decided to break things off between us after two year and half.

Aside of he admitted that he cheated, he also said he bored with me.

Then, I also answered my friend.

'If you really love someone,

You will never feel bored and find another woman.

If you really love someone,

You will never want to disappoint the person you love'

And I believe all of you,

broken up or still single,

you will find someone who love as much as you do.

:)

I Want to Break Down and Cry

Is it really fine if you want to break down and cry, but there is no tears are flowing?

You listen to sad songs and enjoy it to the stage where you really felt the songs' meaning,

but you also can't cry.

It's happening to me.

I'm in mood to listening to sad songs these days.

I want to cry, but the tears won't flow.

Maybe it's not me who feeling sad.

Maybe it's just me who feeling disappointed if the relationship won't work.

Maybe it's just me who is hoping this will work,

they are all right.

We don't need to worry.

I really want to know what is their relationship.

I want to know whether they are seeing each other or not.

I want to know whether they are texting each other, calling each other, video calling each other,

just like before.

I know time will tell.

But can't they give us a hint?

They just give us riddles and let us solve it by ourselves.

Everything changed.

But I hope their promises are not.

Why did it looked like a song lyric?

Well, it's not.

Those were what I'm feeling right now.

And I wrote it here.

Goodnight^^

Is it okay to Feel Down?

Hello...

I was very busy last week, I meant last Monday 'til Sunday. I even slept at 2 am, I even slept at 5 am last Sunday and woke up at 7.30 am.

I got Transcript jobs and I liked to immediately finish it.

The result was I finished it and my body dropped. Not only body, my mind also crashed.

I went home from office today with empty feeling.

I don't know.

Am I feeling down?

Am I just tired?

Am I want to cry?

No,

I don't want to cry.

The tears won't out though.

I just felt empty oh-so-sudden.

And

I'm feeling in listening to sad songs right now.

Well,

my music is playing #Gryffin - #Byebye

Nice song :)

You have to listen to it.

HERE!

I also think that where's my last year's confidence and woman who don't afraid of anything?

Where is she?

I want her to return!

Because, I'm not that strong without her!

I promise I will be that woman again!

I don't want to act such a child!

I want to be mature again!

I can act as a child, but in mature way :)

I also want to sleep early tonight.

Maybe lack of sleeping made me think negative of myself.

I want to look at the mirror before sleep,

to compliment myself because I ended today well.

For you,

Who read this,

Don't feel empty.

It's okay to feel down.

BUT THEN,

You have to up again.

And be proud of yourself

:)

Secret - U R Fired

Well...

I'm really into sad songs these days LOL

This is kinda old song, maybe four years ago?

But I really love them and their songs~ <3

Secret - U R Fired

Secret - U R Fired (Nightcore Cover)

Don't worry this video has its romaji, hangul and english :)

My Favorite Couple

I'd been really in emo mode these weeks.

My favorite Thai couple...

I will write about them in another post soon!

They are not together right now. Well, they had a huge fight and had not show some affectionate like before.

Well, they had musical before and all of their fans were assuming they were makeup in the stage, because the musical was really like in their real life :'))

That made me (us) even happy and sad in the same time.

I'd been tweeting about them a lot in my Twitter and I had some friends in the same fandom.

I always think that I have to move on from this ship, because we don't know whether they are real or not, even though what they were showing 'til now is real, to the point they are confessing each other feelings in their Youtube Channel.

Well, the age gap is 5 years apart and I really think the man is want to settle with his love. But his love might not think the same.

Whatever their reasons, whatever they are real or not,

I just want the best of them.

:)

I will Always Support Both of them

:)

This is what a really related song for them which I kept listening since afternoon:

Secret - Daddy Long Legs

Not Late?

Hello, People~!!!!

Well...

It's 1st December 2018.

Look at how time goes by...

It's December...

New Month...

And I'd changed a lot since November.

I also just finished my short vacation in Bali with My Older Sister and her friend! :3

Well...

Besides I didn't have time to post in my blog, I think I changed to a better side now.

1. I uninstalled my Otome Games

BYE, OTOME GAMES!!! I'm happy that you stayed with me for a year. But, I don't want to waste my time to play with you anymore. I realized that I didn't even really focusing in doing my jobs because I kept checking the time to play again or not and I spent a lot of money for purchased the coins. And when I finally uninstalled it, I felt really relax and enjoy my work time and socialize with my colleagues.

2. I Prioritize My Self

I'm sorry for people that I said I will help, but you didn't even prioritize my value and kept telling lies. So, I decided to stop everything and prioritize myself more and focusing on my main job. I only accepted part time jobs, such as typing and translating. Other than that, NOPE. When I finally decided this, my mind became clearer and relaxed than before.

3. My Friends

I also made-up with my friends and decided to treasure them more. It was enough when I ditched them once and I realized that I need to see their positive side more than one negative thing happened. And We are still happily talking now (P.S. We just finished video calling for +1 hour)

4. Save Money

I decided to stop crazily shopping for outfits! And I want to save money for my next year's travelling :3

I hope you all know what to do from now on! Because It's really important!