MERRY CHRISTMAS 2018

Merry Christmas 2018, Guys!!!

I hope all of you are spending amazing Christmas, whenever you are :)

I was very lazy today, but still managed to do some exercises <3

We have to keep fit, even though it's holiday, isn't it?

This will be a very short post :)

But,

Let me give you my favorite Christmas song :)

Boney M - Mary's Boy Child

Do You Want Your Ex Back...?

I could not update for almost a week because I went with my friend.

My friend and I had not meet for 6 months?

So we had fun for 3 days.

Karaoke, watching movie, lunch and dinner, talking until 1 am and I sent him to train station.

There was a good topic between us.

So, his friend broken up with her boyfriend. They were dating for 3 years?

The girl was the one who decided to broken up.

And now she wanted him back, because she didn't want to start from beginning with another man..

So,

My friend asked my opinion.

I was gladly and immediately answered (of course I also think about it),

'If you decided to break things off in a relationship,

Never wanted it back.

It's better to start from beginning with other man,

than continue with a wrong man'

My ex-boyfriend decided to break things off between us after two year and half.

Aside of he admitted that he cheated, he also said he bored with me.

Then, I also answered my friend.

'If you really love someone,

You will never feel bored and find another woman.

If you really love someone,

You will never want to disappoint the person you love'

And I believe all of you,

broken up or still single,

you will find someone who love as much as you do.

:)

I Want to Break Down and Cry

Is it really fine if you want to break down and cry, but there is no tears are flowing?

You listen to sad songs and enjoy it to the stage where you really felt the songs' meaning,

but you also can't cry.

It's happening to me.

I'm in mood to listening to sad songs these days.

I want to cry, but the tears won't flow.

Maybe it's not me who feeling sad.

Maybe it's just me who feeling disappointed if the relationship won't work.

Maybe it's just me who is hoping this will work,

they are all right.

We don't need to worry.

I really want to know what is their relationship.

I want to know whether they are seeing each other or not.

I want to know whether they are texting each other, calling each other, video calling each other,

just like before.

I know time will tell.

But can't they give us a hint?

They just give us riddles and let us solve it by ourselves.

Everything changed.

But I hope their promises are not.

Why did it looked like a song lyric?

Well, it's not.

Those were what I'm feeling right now.

And I wrote it here.

Goodnight^^

Is it okay to Feel Down?

Hello...

I was very busy last week, I meant last Monday 'til Sunday. I even slept at 2 am, I even slept at 5 am last Sunday and woke up at 7.30 am.

I got Transcript jobs and I liked to immediately finish it.

The result was I finished it and my body dropped. Not only body, my mind also crashed.

I went home from office today with empty feeling.

I don't know.

Am I feeling down?

Am I just tired?

Am I want to cry?

No,

I don't want to cry.

The tears won't out though.

I just felt empty oh-so-sudden.

And

I'm feeling in listening to sad songs right now.

Well,

my music is playing #Gryffin - #Byebye

Nice song :)

You have to listen to it.

HERE!

I also think that where's my last year's confidence and woman who don't afraid of anything?

Where is she?

I want her to return!

Because, I'm not that strong without her!

I promise I will be that woman again!

I don't want to act such a child!

I want to be mature again!

I can act as a child, but in mature way :)

I also want to sleep early tonight.

Maybe lack of sleeping made me think negative of myself.

I want to look at the mirror before sleep,

to compliment myself because I ended today well.

For you,

Who read this,

Don't feel empty.

It's okay to feel down.

BUT THEN,

You have to up again.

And be proud of yourself

:)

Secret - U R Fired

Well...

I'm really into sad songs these days LOL

This is kinda old song, maybe four years ago?

But I really love them and their songs~ <3

Secret - U R Fired

Secret - U R Fired (Nightcore Cover)

Don't worry this video has its romaji, hangul and english :)

My Favorite Couple

I'd been really in emo mode these weeks.

My favorite Thai couple...

I will write about them in another post soon!

They are not together right now. Well, they had a huge fight and had not show some affectionate like before.

Well, they had musical before and all of their fans were assuming they were makeup in the stage, because the musical was really like in their real life :'))

That made me (us) even happy and sad in the same time.

I'd been tweeting about them a lot in my Twitter and I had some friends in the same fandom.

I always think that I have to move on from this ship, because we don't know whether they are real or not, even though what they were showing 'til now is real, to the point they are confessing each other feelings in their Youtube Channel.

Well, the age gap is 5 years apart and I really think the man is want to settle with his love. But his love might not think the same.

Whatever their reasons, whatever they are real or not,

I just want the best of them.

:)

I will Always Support Both of them

:)

This is what a really related song for them which I kept listening since afternoon:

Secret - Daddy Long Legs

Not Late?

Hello, People~!!!!

Well...

It's 1st December 2018.

Look at how time goes by...

It's December...

New Month...

And I'd changed a lot since November.

I also just finished my short vacation in Bali with My Older Sister and her friend! :3

Well...

Besides I didn't have time to post in my blog, I think I changed to a better side now.

1. I uninstalled my Otome Games

BYE, OTOME GAMES!!! I'm happy that you stayed with me for a year. But, I don't want to waste my time to play with you anymore. I realized that I didn't even really focusing in doing my jobs because I kept checking the time to play again or not and I spent a lot of money for purchased the coins. And when I finally uninstalled it, I felt really relax and enjoy my work time and socialize with my colleagues.

2. I Prioritize My Self

I'm sorry for people that I said I will help, but you didn't even prioritize my value and kept telling lies. So, I decided to stop everything and prioritize myself more and focusing on my main job. I only accepted part time jobs, such as typing and translating. Other than that, NOPE. When I finally decided this, my mind became clearer and relaxed than before.

3. My Friends

I also made-up with my friends and decided to treasure them more. It was enough when I ditched them once and I realized that I need to see their positive side more than one negative thing happened. And We are still happily talking now (P.S. We just finished video calling for +1 hour)

4. Save Money

I decided to stop crazily shopping for outfits! And I want to save money for my next year's travelling :3

I hope you all know what to do from now on! Because It's really important!

A Little Sweet

I'm literally feeling very sweet lately!!!!

And typing this while smiling 'til my mouth is kinda hurt!!!

My favorite couple is back!!!! :3

I won't tell in here :D

That's why I want to share this sweet song :D

A Little Sweet - Silence Wang ft. BY2

There are Chinese, Pinyin and English!!

ENJOY!!!

P.S. Sorry for the short update!!

The Busyyyyyyyyy

This may be that longest time since I updated my blog...

:')

I hope it's really okay and you still anticipate my blogs' contents xD

My parents are staying with me right now and they will back to hometown next week, which I will make sure that I will update a lot next week.

My activities, what are my favorites now, what songs am I really addicting right now, what movies, dramas, etc, etc.

Because I actually have a lot of lists, but all is in waiting list to be revealed xD 

:3

I'm actually already planning to update tonight and this is the post after a really long time :3

I'm really enjoying Thai Dramas nowadays, what genre is it? I will reveal it next time :3

And I'm planning to learn Thai :)

I really love to learn foreign languages.

I'm actually speaking Chinese, Japanese, English, Indonesian, Hong Kong and there will be more to learn :D

I also busy in giving tuition to my three friends :3

Since one of them is going to Japan to study next year in October.

That's why I'd like to teach her and her sisters are also have interest to learn.

I was out of town with my parents, cousin and Grandma.

2 Days and One Night. More will be revealed in next post :p

The activities made me lacking sleep, but I enjoy it really much!

The negative is I keep yawning in my office xD

But I always full smile in office :3

I also Hope You All to HAVE A NICE DAY

and

FULLY SMILE EVERYDAY!

Am I included as an Otaku?

So...

I recently realized a little...

Am I being an Otaku now?

If you don't know what is Otaku.

Otaku means sometimes used to mean hardcore anime fan. Originally comes from the Japanese word otaku meaning house. If your a otaku it means you have no social life, love life, ect (Thanks to Urban Dictionary)

Otaku also means Otaku (おたく/オタク) is a Japanese term for people with obsessive interests, particularly in anime and manga (Thanks to Wikipedia)

BUT!

I'm not obsessive in anime or manga though,

I'm watching Chinese Drama and even searched for the novel after I watched them!!!

Every day!!

After works, weekend and sunday!!

Let's just say that I prefer watching dramas than went for grocery :9

Rather than going out with my friends, I prefer watching dramas.

Since I found these dramas are very nice and the couples are really... sasjajshaksahsua!!!!!!!!

But, I still keep in touch with friends tho...

I still hung out with some of workmates.

I will try to change it...

I will go socialize with friends and hangout with them.

I will limit these dramas...

And I will even do what I'm going to for 2018.

:)

EXILE - Lovers Again

I'm really an old school person, aren't I?

BUT!

You can't blame me that this song can keep entering my mind, even though it's been 7 or 8 years that I knew this song :)

EXILE - Lovers Again (Japanese Version)

And I remembered that this is a first song that made me become Exile's fans and fell in love with their two vocalists :3

I always love listening to this song and recently I found Chinese Version of this song:

Rajor - Lovers Again (Chinese Version)

I am so in love with these two songs even more :)

Even though EXILE has a lot of Generations now,

I still love this one :)

First love is hard to be ended, isn't it?

KBShinya - That Girl

I really have to post this!!!!!!

My new favorite!!!!

KBShinya - That Girl Cover

Olly Murs - That Girl Original

Olly Murs - That Girl EDM

I found this song two days ago, and I couldn't help to fall in love with this cover :3

And I decided to share it here.

KBShinya is Chinese and I think his pronunciation is very nice and easy listening <3

Yes, I fell in love with his voice.

Well, I can't share his picture though, because I don't know which one is the real him.

So, let's just keep guessing.

I fell in love with his voice, so I don't really care about his face :3

3rd Reason~

I actually just realized these days that Chinese People's voices can be very beautiful and sweet!

Don't be wrong,

I always watch and listen to Chinese songs (mainly Taiwan).

But, I didn't really pay attention to China there.

And I immediately fell in love with their voices!

Not only one, of course!

But I will share one by one,

So that you can enjoy one by one too!

どうぞ！

倫桑愛唱歌

Lun Sang 不愛我就拉倒 If You Don’t Love Me, It’s Fine 好きじゃなくても結構

Lun Sang ft. VK 陽光宅男 The Sunny Indoors-man 明るいオタク

Lun Sang 追光者 light seekers 光を追う者

Lun Sang 時間飛行 Time Flies 時間の中で飛ぶ Zeitflug

These are only several songs that I listed :)

I will continue again tomorrow!!!

Yes, for your information,

I sometimes fall to asleep when I listen to their songs :)

<3

2nd Reason :)

This will be my second reason of my happiness.

嗝壁老汪

He is one of Chinese ASMR that voice made me melted and kept squealing wherever I watch or listen to his videos :)

His sentences are really sweet and adorable. His laugh. How he softly and sweetly said sentences!!!!

Damn, I'm fangirling right now :3

Well,

There are 19+ videos, but there are underrated videos too!

It's safe to click :)

He can becomes one of the sweetest boyfriend in the world.

Yes, I know it's only ASMR and scenario that he made.

We don't even know his face,

so on and so on.

Whatever it is,

He is one of the reasons that makes me smile :)

Even though his face is ugly or whatever negative thinks that appear in your mind,

at least he didn't do wrong things or lies.

Several days ago,

He deleted some of his videos (but he uploaded it back already!) and I didn't really know the reasons.

I think there are haters who bad-mouth him 

Whatever it is,

I just hope he can ignore it and be himself.

Good Luck for all of us!

This is first reason...

Yes,

I will divided the reasons by part...

:)

Because it will be too much if I type in only one post.

I want you to enjoy every reasons which made me happy.

FIRST!

I'd been really into ASMR these weeks.

My favorites are Japanese and Chinese.

If I didn't tell you before,

I'm a Chinese :)

I was so into in Japanese ASMR and now, I'm so into in Chinese ASMR too.

Well...

I think this may not ASMR. But, I still think it's very sweet and somehow it melted me and it made my heart feeling mixed.

SWEET GOODNIGHT SAYINGS~!!!!

The one who uploaded it really make a good job~!

How sweet is it to have a boyfriend who say those sweet things for you every night <3

HAPPINESS ARE REAL!!!!

I've been very happy these weeks.

2 weeks for exact.

I didn't mean that I wasn't happy before, but these two weeks really making me keep smiling, even though I did a little mistake.

And I also OT in the office :)

But I keep smiling and even though I complained, but it was jokingly complaining and my co-workers are smiling too.

We are doing OT with smiles on our faces.

That was the reason why I didn't update :)

I also think that happiness are from ourselves.

Yes,

Environments also can be our sources of happiness.

But, it only can be our happiness when we take it as happiness.

If environments actually make us happy, 

but we don't take it as happiness.

Then, we will not be happy.

We will not be smiling.

I actually don't know what am I typing about...

I just want to share my happiness with all of you.

This life is too short to not be happy.

I will share why and what made me happy these past weeks.

And I hope you can be happy by what made me happy too 

:)

That will be the next post though!

:D

Devil's Line~!!!!!

I'm so fucking in love with this Manga!!!!!!

Devil's Line

I don't think this manga is good at first. But, as I kept reading it, I became fall in love with the characters and plot!! >.<

I thought this is only typical love story of vampire and human, but it's actually more complicated <3

The man was so sweet!!! <3

It made me even want to share this here :3

The main guy becomes even cooler that I kept reading it :3

OKAY!!!!! HE WILL BE MY NEW FAVORITE NOW!!!!

Yuuki Anzai <3

I also love this man <3

Johannes Kleemann <3

There is anime too!

I'm going to watch it after I finish the manga~!!!!

Go Slow for Yourself~

I've been having this kinda harsh to my feeling these days...

And I also been thinking to myself.

Every morning, for exact.

It's okay to be slow.

It's okay to go easy on yourself.

Truthfully said,

I really like to do things fast.

Finish things fast.

Doing jobs fast.

Thinking fast.

Yes,

It's good to be fast.

But...

Sometimes it's really frustrating.

Sometimes it's really tiring.

That's why these days,

I really tried to go easy on myself.

And finally,

Today...

I also let out the tears that I'd been holding on these weeks.

:')

After cried,

I really felt light.

Then,

I thought again that it's really okay to go slow and be easy for yourself.

It's okay to cry.

:)

Aloha~~!!!

So...

I'd been busy doing stuffs these days which made me can't update my blog~ :3

Please do forgive me~

The unexpected photo shoot ended well and I love the result very much~

I will share the result tomorrow :3

Today...

I just wanted to kinda checked-in in my blog?

I will update much tomorrow :3

A little spoiler, 

I will review a movie tomorrow.

Latest movie~

<3

We Need Friends, Aren't We?

I just go back from hanged out with my friends <3

Yes, the usual friends that I talked before.

We had dinner and watched The Nun IMAX :3

Four of us and only me who really love to watch horror, two of them are okay to watch horror and the last one really hates to watch horror :3

But, we watched it together though.

Even though the last one wanted to watch other movie :D

I hadn't meet them for...

3 weeks?

We had a fight before we didn't meet for 3 weeks.

I love being around them. And when the fight happened, I thought that it's really hard to befriend with people who you just knew for a year.

But then...

Isn't this befriend like?

You fought, you made up and everything's will be all right as it flows?

How can you become friends when you leave them when all of you had a fight?

Aren't you just too coward to face the reality?

Yes,

We have to grow up and have little friends are important than a lot of friends.

Even so,

You will have fights and it's your decision to whether keep being friends or moving on by your own and keep declining when they ask to hang out.

I decide to keep being friends with them.

Yes, they are childish.

Yes, they may not perfect as you expected them to be.

Yes, you don't want stupid fights happen again.

But, the fights will help all of us to grow up.

If you have brain, that is.

:)

A fight happened because all of us might accidentally decided a wrong choice.

And it's your own choice again whether to repeat the wrong choice or grow up with that and be wiser.

Well...

This is the longest post that I had been posted for September or these last months <3

Happy Sleep Night <3

Aqua Timez - Toushindai no Love Song

I just found this cover~ <3

I already knew this song before, but when I listened to this cover and I immediately searched for the original song.

And one thing that immediately hit me is Aqua Timez is actually disbanding :')

I knew this band since Elementary School and I also used the name became my first email account for Yahoo :D

Aqua Timez - Toushindai no Love Song (ORIGINAL)

I also woke up for dawn to watch them in Television :') 

The vocalist is handsome that I kept squealing when I watched him sing <3

Aqua Timez - Toushindai no Love Song (COVER)

Back number - Check no One Piece (COVER)

I haven't check his cover for a kinda long time :')

Since my old laptop, I was kinda short hiatus on blogs and Youtube.

I opened my old blog which about Konamilk - Chiisana Koi no Uta 

I have this urge to check his cover and I found this:

Back number - Check no One Piece (COVER)

Is it me or is his voice became maturer? <3

LYRICS:

Kanji

back number 

チェックのワンピース

作詞：清水依与吏
作曲：清水依与吏

夜の街を見下ろしながら
なんとなく気付いた事は
あんなに綺麗に光ってたってさ
自分は見えないんだよな

この街は色とりどりに
光と陰を連れて明日へ向かう
あの中でも僕達も
光っていたのかな

これから
チェックのワンピースを
どこかで見つける度に
あぁ君を思い出すのかな
嫌だな　嫌だな
それでも
いつかまた出会えたら
僕ならもう大丈夫だと
言えるように
君のいない明日を
光らせよう

君の頼んだものの方がさ
なんでも美味しかったり
いつも君の方が正しかったし
別れも仕方ないのだろう

君からもらったもの
すべてを
思い出せるわけじゃないけど
大事にしていたんだよ
大事にしてたんだよ

これから
チェックのワンピースを
どこかで見つける度に
あぁ君を
思い出すのかな
嫌だな　嫌だな
それでも
いつかまた出会えたら
僕ならもう大丈夫だと
言えるように
君より似合う誰かを
見つけるから

Credits:http://mojim.com/twy109685x4x7.htm

Romaji

yoru no machi wo mioroshinagara
nantonaku kitsuita koto wa
an nani kirei ni hikattetattesa
jibun wa miena in dayo na

kono machi wa irotoridori ni
hikari to kage wo tsurete asu e mukau
ano naka de bokutachi mo
hikatteita no kana

kore kara
chekku no wanpi-su wo dokoka de mitsukeru tabi ni
aa kimi wo omoidasu no kana
iyada na iyada na

sore demo
itsuka mata deaietara boku nara mou daijobu da to 
ieruyou ni
kimi no inai ashita wo hikaraseyou

kimi no tanonda mono no hou gasa
nandemo oishikattari
itsumo kimi no hou ga tadashikatta shi
wakare mo shikatanai no darou

kimi kara morattamono
subete wo omoidaseru wake janai kedo
daiji ni shiteitan dayo
daiji ni shitetan dayo

kore kara
chekku no wanpi-su wo dokoka de mitsukeru tabi ni
aa kimi wo omoidasu no kana
iyada na iyada na

sore demo
itsuka mata deaietara boku nara mou daijobu da to 
ieruyou ni
kimi yori niau dareka wo 
mitsukeru kara

Credits: zynystar

Translation

I noticed something somehow

looking at the city at night

They say it sparkles so pretty

but I couldn't see it at all

This city goes toward tomorrow

bringing many different lights and shadows

I wonder if in the middle of this

we were sparkling too

From now on

everytime I'll see a check one piece

who knows if I'll remember you

I don't want to, I don't want.

Anyway

to be able to tell you that I'm fine

if we're going to meet again one day

I'll try to light up a tomorrow without you

The things you ordered

were always more delicious,

you were always right,

probably our breaking was obvious

I don't really remember

all the things you gave me

but I cherished them all

I cherished them all

From now on

everytime I'll see a check one piece

who knows if I'll remember you

I don't want to, I don't want.

Anyway

to be able to tell you that I'm fine

if we're going to meet again one day

I'll search for somebody else

that matches me more than you 

Credits:http://spilledmilk25.livejournal.com/126110.html